I've been crushed!

Sometimes, it's just best to let things go and to just continue with life. I mean, not everything are meant to be ours. One way or another, everyone will lose somethings. For these reasons, it's best that we forget and move on. There's not one person in life that would actually cling on to things that they knew could never be their's for certain reasons. Am not saying that I have issues with life after living in this world for 16years, but I do want to know the reason behind it. When one loses somethings, what their good at is just whining and gaining sympathy for their losses. But eventually, that's not helping either. Maybe its time for everyone to start making the right decisions so that regretting it would be less painful.:))

" I wanted so much for the relationship to work out, but it never did. Did i make the wrong decisions, I don't think so. I thought it as the perfect opportunity to start anew, I guess I was wrong. Loving you can be painful at times, but I never complained nor did I regret. I tried my best to be a good GF for you, I guess, I just didn't try hard enough. What I'm tryna say is that, ILOVEYOU and will always will. Loving you may hurt big time, but losing you is worst than that. I hope you make the right decisions next time, and never repeat your mistakes. You make a good BF, I know you do. Ps: I STILL LOVE YOU:)"

I LOVE MY LIFE~

I went out yesterday, to city square mall. Met darla and slack plus do some studying too:) I'm a good girl okey. Hahah.. So, studied awhile than the mood just vanished. So, we end up talking about life and she continued feeling PARANOID over her boifey. -.- So, yar.. I had to try to talk her out of it, but didn't help much. These are some pics that was taken:

These are just some, will upload more:)

ps: Bhiee! you know I love you:) hehe.. You know what I mean:))

I ADORE HIM!

Been watching dance vids; especially the ones taught by ZAIHAR:) And I'm loving it. Really. He has lots of creativity when teaching a choreo and its really enjoyable to watch. Darn! I really wana attend his lessons at OLDSCHOOL! He makes me jealous. I wish I could dance and move like him. Heads up. Watch his dance vids on youtube:) hee. I've posted twice today. Randomly.. Heheh:)

Random-ness

W.T.H?! I'm bored! It's 315pm and I'm still at home, entertaining myself with dance vids-.- Loser right? Everyone's out today and the internet's not helping. It's been lagging-.- Boomer! I'm a TOTAL bommer today! Okay, I'm self pity-ing myself and I know it's not gonna help. *move on liyana!* Well atleast, the weathers great:) Not all sunny, but cool and I think it's gona rain AGAIN. Been raining since two weeks ago. I think the sky has mensus or something. I mean, seriously!! One time its freakishly hot and sunny, and the next; cool and windy. Like w.t.h?!

ohhlala~ 'he' text me just now. I don't really know whether I shud feel happy or just not feel at all. HAHAH! But seriously. I don't even think I had any feelings just now. Maybe I was toooo engrossed watching my vid but I'm NOT feeling-less okyeh. Okay,okay. I'm gona like continue watching vids. And I know I've been crapping so I shall NOT continue further.

~ But it's over now, Go on and take a bow.

HEADS UP

ECLIPSE IS AWESOME!!:) hehe. I jus got back home from movies. Like seriously.. The show is F-ING awesome. Watch, watch:) However, this episode is so FULL of romance that I wish I was in their shoe:) I will probably rate this show a 99.1% over 100%:) Good enough right. So watch the damm show! What I'm more excited of is that I'M CATCHING ECLIPSE AGAIN:) I have like 4 more dates in total and I'm guessing I will NEVER get enough:) Awesome show, Awesome weather, Awesome time and Awesome atmosphere. wuhuu.. I'm a HAPPY girl:)

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After watching the movie just now, I was actually hoping that the person I was with just now was YOU. That would totally end the day perfectly. hah.. It was just hope. So now, I'm just in time to watch the 'scary movie 4' on channel 5. But I seriously got to take a shower first. So, I'll end the post here; short and sweet:)

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Bhiee, you know I still like you. Although I have been feeling out of place because of you not contacting and whatnot, I still like you; you know I still do:) I might have said it before and I'm saying it again. You're the most AWESOME thing that happen to me and you make a good boyfriend. Iloveyou bhie. Only you:) I've never stop loving you, and never will. I know I may have referred to you in my previous posts, but that doesn't mean a thing. It was one of those days. Understand kyehh. hehe!

T.G.I.F

Heh.. I'm at home right now, watching dance vids on utube:) I LIKE:) Somehoww, I miss DANCING sia! It's like I've lost part of myself this few months. Been really busy lately and I haven't got any time to go dancing with the peeps. I can't wait till these NATIONAL EXAMS are over. :) Wuhuu! Was blog-hoping awhile ago, and I chance upon Mr khye's blog. And suddenly, all the old times came smashing back in my memories. I guess, I just MISS attending dance trainings lead by him.

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Will be going PS later on for movies:) Meeting FAAZ to catch ECLIPSE:) Damm, am I happy! I finally get to watch that HOT DUDE starring in the show:) Would probably be slacking after moves since tomorrow's SATURDAY:) Oh yar! And I forget to mention.. I skip school today:) I had a GOOD rest:) I've never felt sooo rested in life.

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You know, sometimes its best to just let go of certain things in life. Something's are just not meant for yours to keep. I mean, there's absolutely no point holding on if you're convinced that nothing good will come out of it. You, yourself know deep down, what's your feeling likee. Stop torturing yourself with lies. Lies that you wished were darn right true. What's the point of knowing all are lies but ignoring the ringing bells in your head? [It's never too late to say "I'm done"]:) - taken from my GF advise

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You've changed and I can't help but notice it. But that's not the issue. The issue is, it sucks to know you're different than before. Everybody says that "when you lose something, something new and good will come out from it" but I know that's just a pharse. Memories of what we've been through can never just dissapear in a blink of an eye. I'm not against you changing, but it's your actions that bothers me deeply. YOU said that you wanted me to give you time. And that you liked me. How ironic. I guess, what I'm tryna say is that.. I don't want to hold on to something where both you and me know that it's not worth holding on for. Neither do I want to continue hoping that things will get better from where we laid off. I don't want to remember the 'lies' you once enunciate. I just need you to come and say "everything's gona be alright" or "we'll break through". Or maybe just clear the midst that's been hanging. 'I'm still waiting'..

Still thinking..

Sometimes, I wonder when does a person feels contented with what there is to life. So much drama; to begin with. After living for 16years, I'm still figuring out the answer cause SERIOUSLY.. I've never really gotten an answer. I was never contented with the things I have and never once did I bother to TRY understanding the situation. I reckon, life's NEVER been fair. Having to go through hardships after hardships couldn't possibly change the current mindset one has. After all, those are the UGLY side of life. However, I've come to terms with the fact that this are all parts and parcels of life and there's no point dwelling upon it. People change for a reason and that's something NO one can ever run from. Neither can they prevent it from happening cause ultimately, EVERYONE would have to go through the same stage. Apparently, I've come to terms with that fact and learnt to BE contented with what I have. Appreciate others and things around cause time never waits for anyone. "I choose to believe that somehow, god's fair and life's fair":)
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I just had my mother toungue O'LEVEL oral today. Seriously, I wished I had supernatural powers! I swear I could hear butterflies flying in my stomach minutes before the examination starts. Thank gosh, the oral wasn't that bad. It went smoothly though:) I'm CONTENTED:) Overall, I assume I did preety well. I'm watching ECLIPSE tomorrow at PS. GEE! Can't wait:) Lucks to the remaining MALAY students who would be taking their oral for the next 2 weeks:)
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P.S: Everything's different lately. Been having issues with myself and things happening around. I guess, history DO sometimes repeat itself.